Currently Gaming PS2 Shadow Hearts: From the New World By Navarre Corp see related

Lets see here......Me, my senior friend Jesse, his girlfriend, and Robin have decided to go as Final Fantasy 7 characters for Holloween next year! Muahaha, I shall be vincent, Jesse=sephiroth, Morhia(not sure how spelled)=Tifa, and Robin=Aeris! Hehehe......I even found a website on how to make Vincent's golden gauntlet thing OUT OF FOAM!!!! An it actually looks real to. Hehehe...I now have a summer project/right now project.....I must get to work!

Oh and in Mr. Valero's class we have to write 44 poems of our own, almost each one in a certain format! Well, could be worse. So i decided to post one of them every day, since some of them are good and some of them are bad. Tell me what ya think, and CAN YOU HEAR THIS MUSIC? Im trying to see if it works on other comps.

Here's the first one:

Happiness is nothing at all

I have only sat alone in sorrow,

I am here and there with a masked smile.

Call me when you feel sad,

Speak of me when you want to feel better about yourself.

Put a drop of sadness upon the sea in your soul.

Wear the mask i have worn my whole life.

Laugh at the stupid jokes to feel included,

Play, cry, live a lie such as I.

Let me name never be forgotten.

Let if flow through your veins Like I have allowed

Happiness means a split second of forgetfulness to life.

What is this feeling of oblivious laughter?

Why must so many never realize?

I am forbidden of True Happiness,

Somewhere a child may cry, and yet...

All of the world would be laughing, as have you.

Heres the last one for the day:

My soul is a shattered mirror. I know because I feel me multuple reflections of hatred each time  I gaze.

A self-torn mind makes tears in this battered cathedral.

Her smile pierces my reality like broken hearts.

Under a watchful eye of deceit, the lifeless-glass shards turns to sand. I sit up, watch glass pieces begin to dissolve into emotions.

In this angry and confusing room, I took my eyes and let it happen, let the tears out-out of that nonexistent soul.

Okay that one was full of bull, but hey! At least I get a grade of it right?

--Happiness is nothing at all, just a glimpse away from reality--

Currently Gaming XB360 Condemned: Criminal Origins By Sega of America, Inc. see related

man.....do you ever feel like....punching something really hard...but then wanna cry your eyes out...but instead wanna scream out of anger and frustration....and then punch something instead causing the triangle to start all over? Its wierd....I started remembering what all my friends did to me throughout my life, and I started wondering....am I really their friend? Or just a clown with a pool for them or a laugh then forgotten an instant later as if I was never in their minds? Am I really so transparent? Or that annoying that my own friends start to ignore me, causing me to leave? There are VERY select few whom dont do this, but the people whom I thought were my friends turned their backs, and now i realize it....its so......aggravating! Is there a reason for suffering? or smiling? Is there a reason for life? Please tell me, and not some bullshit response like "It is -----will that we live on" or "to gain what we want here" For i only want a simple thing, and yet it is everywhere, just not in my grasp. It hovers above me while everyone is able to grab it, and sieze it for their own. When one loses it, I start to think they might share the remains, but instead they share with someone else. Eventually you will know what this is, some of you already know, and some have no idea what the hell im saying. Im just wondering why must life be so....alone? yeesh, many of my friends deserted me, my mom is gone for half the day and then i go to rehearsal, my whole family is out on their own life or are dead, and i just sit and play an RPG. Man, The Cyrus is pathetic......

Note: This is not an angry statement or an emotional breakdown, im just making an observation. So dont take this that seriously okay?.

Oh and before i got the comment of someone wanting to play DOA4 with me, i kinda returned it (SORRY) and rented condemned....and now that i got mellow i didnt get scared...only annoyed by the combat system. Maybe changing my viewpoint from, "Im gonna shit myself if i keep playing," to "Come here and take your beating fromy my shovel bitch," has something to do with it. And can you hear the music? im trying to make sure if it works with other comps.

--Happiness is not a gift, it is a shareness from others--

Currently Gaming Disgaea: Hour of Darkness By Atlus USA see related

Well, im not broken, not shattered, certainly not surprised since i knew already, but now im happy that we're still friends :) Um....I rented DOA4 again....god damn the game is fun! A battle could be going your way and then BOOM! the enemy could counter your every move and you lose! Of course that can get annoying but hey, its similar to a real fight sometimes. And uh.....I started to play this ridiculous version of dance dance revolution and its called....Flash Flash Revolution! You go to www.flashflashrevolution.com and make a free account, and just play DDR with the arrow keys! its ridiculous and fun and very lower budget than DDR, which is why I prefer DDR more, but FFR is closer and doesnt involve me breaking out the mats and everything. Plus my mats are falling apart :P. Well...uhh.....thats all? Dont got a story or a poem, so....by bye.

--Power is only the weakness of the mind, Self-realization becomes the shield of your own self--

Currently Gaming XB360 Quake 4 By Activision see related

grrrrr.......i think i may have been entranced by one of my good chick-friends... dammit this sucks. Ive liked her for a while but never wanted to damage our friendship and left it at that. but ya know, a mans gotta know where he stands at sooner or later! I just hope she doesnt hate me for life for telling her ive liked her for a while.....aw man high school is complicated! Maybe she'll only take one of my lungs...or just not ever say anything about what i said ever again. I prefer the second one though....hm...it gets boring and tiresome to be in the background for so long....hmmm....

 I rented Quake 4 and man....its creeping me out...this has never happened to me before from a game. Usually jolts.but damn! whats wrong with me?Would you get creeped out if a gigantic heart was pulsing and making whale sounds and you thought something was gonna pop out somewhere and kill you? didnt think so, man, now ive become a loser lol.

Nobody can be lonesome forever.

Sometimes you snap and just wish to embrace her, even if she says never.

Nobody can be crying all the time.

Sometimes you need to play the Mime.

Nobody can just sit and wait.

Sometimes you get bored, waiting for fate

Nobody can watch "her" without feeling a sense of longing.

Sometimes you get annoyed of your own dawdeling.

I...I...I just hope she doesnt hate me,

I just wanted her to see.

Was it so wrong?

After waiting for so long?

Please....spare the stabbing, spare my own tears, just dont hate me...

Please...

Hm....Didnt go too well with that one....damn im pitiful...

--If you could give your happiness to one person, who would it be?--

oh and can you listen to this music? tell if can and if you like the song, i decided to update the place.